Guantanamo Voices

Not Talking About Torture

It’s strange that everyone everywhere asks the same questions about Guantanamo. With few memorable exceptions, journalists from Finland have the same questions as young Muslim girls from Birmingham and the French film crew runs through almost exactly the same list on camera as the old Liverpool socialists do around the dinner table.

There’s the War on Islam question, the American response question, the Who’s to Blame question. But the worst question, Moazzam and Chris agree, is the Torture Question. They discuss the Torture Question as the car speeds toward Leeds.

‘People want to know the gory details,” gripes Moazzam, “Some people will be as brazen as you can imagine, “So were you tortured?”‘
‘Like: pow!’ says Chris. “And then they always seem kind of frustrated. I always try to start that off with: putting people in cages is torture. Period.”
‘The U.N. conventions against torture clearly outlaw physical or psychological torture. And so people should recognize that it’s psychological torture. And even then there’s this discussion over “What is torture?” And to try to narrow it down, that it can be some sort of: This is torture, this isn’t torture. Well, why? “Well, because I’ve written down and said so, not because I’ve experienced it. Some people say, putting someone an air conditioned room isn’t torture. Torture is pulling someone fingernails out.’
‘They’ll say, “So did you torture them?”‘ continues Chris, ‘And I’m supposed to be like, “Boy howdy, did we! First we tied em up to a bed frame and then we connected that up to a couple car batteries and then we hooked that to their testicles!” That’s what they think we’re going to say up there! And it’s like, no! It’s temperature controls, these much more subtle techniques. And then they’re like, “Oh, well, that’s not as torturous as we thought it was.” And it’s like, “That’s why they make these rules, man! Because these things sound less impactful!”

Amazing Questions Part 2

Chris, Moazzam and other detainees field a dozen or so questions every night from audiences and a constant barrage of them from media. Here are the most insightful of the last week.

From the Sheffield audience, January 20th —

How do you channel and control what I imagine must be incredible feelings of anger toward the west and the world for your situation?

OMAR DEGHAYES: I don’t know, I don’t really understand. Our belief probably helped us. Because we believe in the hereafter, we believe in the destination, that if something happens to us, there must be a wisdom behind it. Though we have been treated badly, there must be some benefit. You learn patience in prison. If I speak how much I learned in prison, maybe people think Guantanamo is a good place. But we learned a lot in Guantanamo really. I said this to Chris when we first met and he couldn’t believe it but we learned a lot about ourselves, about mixing with other people, about prisoners and people’s hatred and prejudices and how we should not be the same if we were in a position of power. All this I think you learn from other people’s mistakes. And the belief that the who turns day and night is not America, but Allah.
From Aerosol Arabic, Birmingham street artist. Interview held with Chris in a random Middle Eastern restaurant on Stratford Road, January 18th —

How did you feel when you came home from Guantanamo?

Very Official Interview (with falafel)

Very Official Interview (with falafel)

CHRIS: I felt like I was losing my damn mind, I couldn’t figure out where I fit.. It wasn’t until I was hanging out with other veterans who were also screwing up their all their relationships and also couldn’t keep jobs that I thought, well, that adds a little perspective. Maybe it’s not just me, maybe it’s this whole damn thing. Maybe it’s having been over there and coming back. I challenge anybody to try it, you come back and you’re a freak show. Nobody wants to touch us with a ten foot stick. My resume says Guantanamo Bay on it now, where am I going to work. Who wants that guy? Cause right off the bat, they know, this kid’s probably got problems.

You’re going around now throwing two fingers up against your country and basically talking internationally about how crap your country is. Do you think that you’re in a way being disloyal?

CHRIS: No, because this isn’t two fingers up against my country, it’s two fingers up against the people who have sold my country out. These are two fingers up against the Bush administration and the corporate pillagers who have sold out the young people of America. I love America. I think America is a great place to grow up. I think a lot of working class values are things I’m really glad to have been imbued with. I wouldn’t have wanted to grow up anywhere but where I grew up. I wouldn’t have wanted to grow up with anybody but the people who raised me. I don’t my regret being an American. But my finger’s goin’ up at the people who are taking our ability to be proud of America away

From the Nottingham University Audience, January 19th:

Who is responsible for the abuses in Guantanamo, the low level soldiers or the high ranking officials?

CHRIS: It comes from both ends. On the blocks, there’s not an extreme level of oversight. The camp comandant and the seargant major of the camp, the highest ranking NCO and officer of the camp, have virtually nothing to do with the camp — they make all the rules, but they never go in and see it. There is a lot of abuse in our operations just day by day, that goes from something that’s procedural to something that’s excessively forceful. But then interrogators and comandants set things from their end, like they’re responsible for the frequent flier program.

MOAZZAM: The great lesson from Nuremberg is that the individual soldier cannot claim they were not liable because they were just following orders. How did abuse happen? In a place like Bagram, which is closer to the front lines, there’s more anger, there’s more energy from soldiers, there’s more liability for abuse. But there is an environment that can be created when people at the top like Donald Rumsfeld says, “I stand for eight to ten hours a day, why is standing limited for four hours for these guys.” But of course when we stand as detainees, we stand chained, with our hands above our heads. So the penny drops from the top.

From the Nottingham University audience, January 19th:

Were there many other soldiers who felt the way you did, Chris? Why did you respond differently to the situation than the other soldiers?

CHRIS: I was definitely minority status, it was like… it reminds me of when Christianity was first starting to come out and people would draw the Jesus fish on walls. It’s like a secret society. I’m an absolute pacifist, which, I know, is at odds with me being in the military but I was playing a dangerous gamble of trying to get college money and get out without being deployed… There were a couple other people who were kind of in line with we. Most of them were like, “We don’t know what these people are here for, it’s more than likely that our government’s full of shit. So the best thing we can do is just go and do our jobs and treat these people like people.” Who recognized that we couldn’t do anything to change things, that were all specialists, we were all privates, we can’t do anything that will radically change things. There were other people there who were good people, we weren’t all horrible monsters.

I don’t know what to attribute my values to. I was raised by this mouthy little Portugese guy, my grandpa, who was an absolute racist. But racism’s just never really stuck with me, I’ve always thought that was wrong. My family are hunters, I’m a vegetarian. I’ve just always been like this. Maybe I’m just some kind of weird hillbilly mutant.

Most Fascinating Guantanamo Questions
January 14, 2009, 9:47 pm
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Chris Arendt, Moazzam Begg and other detainees have been crisscrossing the country for a week now, speaking in four cities during seven extremely long days. By my own calculations, in those seven days they have talked about their Guantanamo experiences to roughly 900 audience members and 22 media people, including the BBC, Al Jazeera, CNN and one reggae-loving documentary filmmaker who said his name was “Small Money.”

A lot of people ask the former guard and detainees the same questions, but here I’ve culled together the most fascinating questions so far from both audiences and media.

From the Bristol audience: What were the most memorable worst experiences you have seen?
Moazzam: I don’t really like to focus on all of those on a personal level because I like to move forward, but some of the worst things: The dehumanization, the torture and the murder of other people. And that for me was worse than anything I had to endure.

Jarallah: They put me in the cage or the prison without anything. One day they just knocked the door and said, “You’re going home.” They put me on the plane and returned me to my country and that was it. I spent six years of my life in this prison and I didn’t do anything wrong.

Chris: Like Moazzam, I try to stay away from the negative things, not only for me because they’re around in my head but it’s often a question that comes out. Guantanamo, it’s a pile of the worst thing you’ve ever seen. Just to try to provide a visual of the worst thing, well, I didn’t see it, but I was working the sallyport all night. I got to listen to a man scream and scream and scream. Screaming through the night for eight hours because he’d completely lost his mind. Or, not lost his mind. Maybe that’s a totally rational response to the situation.

From the Bristol audience: I’m looking at both of you [the detainees and Chris] and I’m thinking, who is the victim here? Are you the victim, Chris? And if you’re the victim, what are we?

Chris:I am both the oppressor and the oppressed in this case. I’m a victim in that my family has been economically repressed for the entirety of my lineage. We’re victims of a warrior culture that pushes us into the military and economic baiting. I don’t know if writing books or making speeches helps anything, I don’t know if this will end the war. We’re speaking for the possible benefit to the public good, but I came here to meet Moazzam. So that I could share the things inside of my head and he could share the things inside of his. Myself and the members of my organization are doing what we can with what we’ve got and that’s all we’ve got to give.

Question from University of Reading audience: To the detainees, how did you withstand the torture?

Jarallah: Actually, it’s hard. One day, six years, eight months, they kept me in a cell. And then one day, within two days, I have freedom. The government need to hold me, we bring your family. I have two children, one daughter five years, one daughter two years, who was born when I was there.  When they came to me, I was really really, need to see them. The first time, I see them, I couldn’t accept. I feel something between me and them. The same night, I changed my mind and told [the government] I change my mind, I cannot go, keep me here for some days… My mind is good, but I’m strange to see people. It’s really strange to see people, talk to people like you now is really hard for me.

Moazzam: You have to cut yourself off. You have to say to yourself, you are not the man you once were. I’m not a father anymore, I’m not a husabnd anymore, I’m not a son anymore, because if you do, you start thinking about them, and if you start thinking about them, it starts breaking you. And if they break you, they have done their job. They want to break you, so you can’t let them. So you have to cut yourself off from yourself. So, when you see your family after all of those years, you’re cold. You have to say for yourself, for this time here, I am nothing. You are the number they gave you. Here, in a situation like this, During these time, if you do not believe in a God, I challenge you, because you need to believe in something, you need to have someone to talk to. If you are not a person of faith, you will find faith. These were the tools for me that were extremely important. When you return and you see everyone around you crying and your eyes are dry, it’s because your tears dried up a long time ago.

Question from University of Reading audience: There is a difference, maybe, between what a person considers humane treatment and what international law defines as humane. In your eyes, was the treatment at Guantanamo humane?

Moazzam; There are sets or standards of humane treatment. Cruel, inhumane and degrading treatment are outlawed by the US military. And yet people are being degraded to the point that I don’t even want to mention here. The concept of US torture has been outlawed by the US military. And yet torture has been redefined by the Bush administration. When Alberto Gonzalez said that, for something to constitute torture it must lead to organ failure or death, otherwise it’s not torture… And so the interpretations the interpretations have been widened so much that they’ve been reinterpreted. But most ordinary people, I think, should stick to this standard: “Treat people as you would be treated.”

Chris Arendt: Uh, Guantanamo Bay is a dog kennel and you can’t put people in a dog kennel and then say that you’re treating them humanely… I guess that’s as simple as I ever saw it.

Moazzam: The iguana, which is a lizard, is a protected creature in Guantanamo. It is protected under the Endangered Species Act. The detainee has no rights. The first statement made to us as detainees under United States custody was, “You are the property of the United States and you have no rights.” And that’s the distinction, particularly because five people have died in Guantanamo. Because if you kill accidentally an iguana in Guantanamo, you face a fine of $10,000. Ten human beings have died in Guantanamo.

Ex-Detainee Describes Life After Guantanamo
January 6, 2009, 6:28 pm
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The New York Times put together a great piece this week about former Guantanamo detainee Muhammad Saad Iqbal, who was picked up in Jakarta in 2002 allegedly for bragging that he knew how to make a shoe bomb. From there he was held in Egypt, Bagram and finally Guantanamo Bay for five years. The NYT describes what Iqbal was like this August,when he was released after six years of detentions, never having been charged with a crime.



… he had difficulty walking, his left ear was severely infected, and he was dependent on a cocktail of antibiotics and antidepressants. In November, a Pakistani surgeon operated on his ear, physical therapists were working on lower back problems and a psychiatrist was trying to wean him off the drugs he carried around in a white, plastic shopping bag

The maladies, said Mr. Iqbal, 31, a professional reader of the Koran, are the result of a gantlet of torture, imprisonment and interrogation for which his Washington lawyer plans to sue the United States government.

Iqbar’s story is similar to those of many detainees and I wonder about his threat to sue. As former detainees feel safer speaking up with Bush moving out of office, I would imagine many would bring lawsuits — especially since lawyers have been the ones on the front lines fighting for human rights in Guantanamo for the last six years.

The article also includes this confusing line:

“But the full stories of individual detainees like Mr. Iqbal are only now emerging after years in which they were shuttled around the globe under the Bush administration’s system of extraordinary rendition”


A solid number of detainees have been telling their stories for several years. Moazzam Begg’s in-depth book about his experience, Enemy Combatant, came out in 2006. Is the “full story” available now because government officials are more willing to talk and documents are easier to obtain? Detainees have been speaking up for a while — they’ve just had trouble finding an audience.